Lost Inside Myself

I don't know what happened, quick and painful it did, one minute I'm normal, the next I don't know who I am. I'm standing there thinking then I can't feel a thing, a psychotic meltdown, or just life. I can't feel my head, it buzzes, my breathing feels awkward, and I hurt. It's like glass pressing into my skin. I've inflicted no wounds on myself ever, the pain is too true to be fake, I don't know what's happening, I've lost myself. I'm in no control, but then a golden moment happens, I feel myself, the previous pain still exists, but as myself I remember, I'm scared of it to face. For alone I am, and when the pain comes, I know, I'm lost inside myself.