I don't know what happened,
quick and painful it did,
one minute I'm normal,
the next I don't know who I am.

I'm standing there thinking then I can't feel a thing,
a psychotic meltdown,
or just life.
I can't feel my head,
it buzzes,
my breathing feels awkward,
and I hurt.
It's like glass pressing into my skin.

I've inflicted no wounds on myself ever,
the pain is too true to be fake,
I don't know what's happening,
I've lost myself.

I'm in no control,
but then a golden moment happens,
I feel myself,
the previous pain still exists,
but as myself I remember,
I'm scared of it to face.

For alone I am,
and when the pain comes,
I know,
I'm lost inside myself.