Thrown

You go You know I'm trying Not to show My worries My concerns This helplessness I have learned I sit I wait I sit Hesitate Pondering Procrastinating My mind Demonstrating My lack Of soul My lack Of control Honesty Dexterity The choices Popularity Your choices Regularity The not right The not wrong Losing sight What was strong I pause I pace Again I retrace My steps My mystery My Steps The history We wait to want We want to wait Trial and error Anger and Terror The next The checks We try To protect The lines We draw The hand Final straw Continue with doubt Or continue without Unanswered Unknown The chances We have thrown I pause I pace Again I retrace Our steps Our mystery Our path Our history