I am loud on the outside but shy on the inside
I wonder if my dad will ever come back
I hear my mom say his name
I want you to know
I am loud on the outside but shy on the inside

I pretend I don’t care as if it doesn’t mean a thing 
I feel like no one would understand
I touch the picture we took together 10 years ago
I worry he forgot about me
I cry when special moments come up in life and he is no
where to be found
I am loud on the outside but shy on the inside

I understand he loves me 
I say he will come running back 
I dream that the pieces of my heart will find his way back
home
I try to act tough so I don’t have to face the fact that I
don’t have a dad to hold and to hug
I hope you get me now 
I am loud on the outside but shy on the inside