Life?

I am in a standstill with my life Wake up, brush my teeth, Proceed with zombie-like agility All I want to do is sleep Isn't that sad? The highlight of my world Consists of closing my eyes I live in some type of limbo Where death and life Heaven and hell All things wanted, all things forgotten Mix as one, a paradoxical kaleidoscope A place where you can't decipher One extreme from the next The same yet different How can this be life? How can any of this be real? We place our lives in the hands Of the corrupted and greedy Our happiness in paper bills Leave our thinking to machines Sometimes I pinch myself Believing this is a dream It must be My fingers leave a red mark But inside, I feel nothing at all Nothing.