I do it for you.

I feel like everything is fading Like hope is leaving me slowely Breathing is manual now I must make time to drink water Sleep is not an option I shake all day I feel like I am so very sick After I get home from crying in the bathroom stalls, from looking at people I used to repect and look to for help when I was the weakest losing all love I lye down. I look over to see the can Holes Lighter Breathe in Hold Breathe out I look to the ceiling I cry I cry all the time now I don't do it because I want to I don't do it because I am helpless I do it for us. I stress about seeing you I stress about eating I stress about loving you I stress about looking up I stress about if I do not make an A+ I will be sent away I stress about you not loving me I stress about if I am going to cry today I stress about sitting in the stall crying I stress about feeling pathetic I stress about feeling lost I stress about food I stress about how I will be able to feed him today But most of all I stress about me not being able to be enough About you loving someone else I hate me I love you I know you can get better I want you to You cry calling me saying how you want to die You do not know I have been down I cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry I don't know what to do I must be happy for you I have to be strong So yes, I do it for you I hate myself for it But it is... I breathe for you I am here for you Its for you.