Things once Kind

in my notebook i am starting to rewind reread the pages shut off from the world for some long monthes. somethings bring onags of hurt guilt, saddness, angry, love somethings make me laugh and the world seems great until i remember.. that isn't of late. so now i scan back through the virtual pages of your own and i wonder what happened what evil inside myself i must have shown to push you away. i looked at james and cried today i sat with alex and felt so bad i drew a picture of you in my english book on my spare i tried so hard to let this go... it feels like i only have until june to set things right it feels like the closing of the schoolyear is the blosing of a book a book unlike my own that can never be reopened. that makes my soul catch fire inside im eating myself trying to regain lost ground running a race with an end that can never be found. i'd rather lay dead in the dark than continue this mess i don't know whatever happened to the friend i called best. i cant bring myself to make a new i don't know happened i lost a piece of myself in you. i knwo you don't care and you dont even meet my glance i know that speaking with you i haven't got a chance so why i sit and write these things i will never know but Michelle.. i loved you, more than could ever show. xoxox Confusion Reigns my Life Today, Kyelle