in my notebook
i am starting to rewind
reread the pages
shut off from the world
for some long monthes.

somethings bring onags of hurt
guilt, saddness, angry, love
somethings make me laugh
and the world seems great
until i remember..
that isn't of late.

so now i scan back
through the virtual pages
of your own
and i wonder
what happened
what evil inside myself
i must have shown
to push you away.

i looked at james and cried today
i sat with alex
and felt so bad
i drew a picture of you
in my english book
on my spare
i tried so hard
to let this go...

it feels like
i only have until june
to set things right
it feels like the closing of the schoolyear
is the blosing of a book
a book unlike my own
that can never be reopened.

that makes my soul catch fire
inside im eating myself
trying to regain lost ground
running a race
with an end that can never be found.

i'd rather lay dead in the dark
than continue this mess
i don't know whatever
happened to the friend i called best.

i cant bring myself
to make a new
i don't know happened
i lost a piece of myself in you.

i knwo you don't care
and you dont even meet my glance
i know that speaking with you
i haven't got a chance
so why i sit and write these things
i will never know
but Michelle..
i loved you,
more than could ever show.

xoxox
Confusion Reigns my Life Today,
Kyelle