Taking time to fix my life & my ways, is so damn hard to do
with all the stress I'm under these days. I try so hard to
do the right thing but stress & sorrow is all it brings. My
life is so screwed up all the time I swear, and it seems
like nobody even really cares. I think to myself on ways to
make a huge change, and I know that its my ways I'm gonna
have to totally rearrange. As my eyes fill up with all the
tears, I am all of the sudden faced with all my fears. Fears
of being all alone & fears of failing as a mother in my
home. I feel the darkness closing in with the passing of
each & everyday, contemplating what to do & what it is I
should say. Its going to be the hardest thing I have ever
had to do, telling my husband of 12 years that we are
through. But I can't take the pain of the abuse & him being
unfaithful any longer, and I know with time I will get
stronger. As of now I am so very very weak, there's times I
can't find the words to say & forget how to even speak. But
its time I stood up & became the mother that I need to be,
my babies need me now more than ever can't they all see. Its
not going to happen overnight or anything like that, its
gonna take some time but its worth it & that's a damn fact!
I know I can do it, Really, I know I can! And I know I can
do It without any man!!
 
* Written By: Andrea L. Wallace *