i just want
you to rip my heart out
and squash it already
i cant even look at you
without tears in my eyes
just fucking do it already
kill my hopes
shatter my dreams
blow apart what was never real.

how could i imagine
feelings that were not there
so what?
it was a look, a caress
a hug, a gentle smile
a whisper through my hair.
no, it was never there.
lustfulness is sin
and i just want you to
let me in
but this wont ever happen

and when you scream
about the sorrows of love
that touches in me
a nerve that knows
everything you say to be true
and i just want you
and tehre's nothing i can do
i just can never have you..

what was never real
all these feelings i could feel
and i just don't understand
how i held out my hand
and i waited for so long
listened to your every song
hoping, crying, bleeding for a day
when i could love you.

that day never came
i never got to tell you
i never will either
i'd rather just crawl away
and let my soul wither
then admit teh awful truth
oh how i wish you'd just come hither...

and when you scream
about the sorrows of love
that touches in me
a nerve that knows
everything you say to be true
and i just want you
and tehre's nothing i can do
i just can never have you..

i just dont know what to do
jealous of everyone who has
ever been with you
hating those who covet
like i do...
and i just want you
if only for once
if only by chance
but there's nothing i can do
i just cna never have you

and this i know
deep inside
i so very very true...
i can never have you.


xox
Kyelle