And It Never Was...[song]

i just want you to rip my heart out and squash it already i cant even look at you without tears in my eyes just fucking do it already kill my hopes shatter my dreams blow apart what was never real. how could i imagine feelings that were not there so what? it was a look, a caress a hug, a gentle smile a whisper through my hair. no, it was never there. lustfulness is sin and i just want you to let me in but this wont ever happen and when you scream about the sorrows of love that touches in me a nerve that knows everything you say to be true and i just want you and tehre's nothing i can do i just can never have you.. what was never real all these feelings i could feel and i just don't understand how i held out my hand and i waited for so long listened to your every song hoping, crying, bleeding for a day when i could love you. that day never came i never got to tell you i never will either i'd rather just crawl away and let my soul wither then admit teh awful truth oh how i wish you'd just come hither... and when you scream about the sorrows of love that touches in me a nerve that knows everything you say to be true and i just want you and tehre's nothing i can do i just can never have you.. i just dont know what to do jealous of everyone who has ever been with you hating those who covet like i do... and i just want you if only for once if only by chance but there's nothing i can do i just cna never have you and this i know deep inside i so very very true... i can never have you. xox Kyelle