Final Act

in my final act an attempt to salvage what was left of the last scene scene 17 draws to an end with something so drastic the audience gasps but it's no surprise. you look at me without a care and i watch your lives go by without a care i wonder why it is each morning i greet this world with such a vacant blank stare. but today that all ended i looked in the mirror and my heart descended. i broke down and i cried and i realized long ago somewhere forgotten i died. the final curtain won't fall yet the final act cannot be forgiven the final thoughts from my head i've driven and as i look at you in awe i wish that maybe inside myself i had seen in the bathroom on cold hard tile i sat there i held myself for a while before i stood up and reached up to the hidden box i pulled it down and with a frown i took the contents and i wrapped them up in a piece of velvet so soft and threw them out. you would have smiled if you cared nobody there i just sat again and i looked down at my hands and then at my thighs and i realized this was all my demise my wrists are torn for nothing just a disguise i tried to hide the pain i tried to lie my way out but now i realize what must come about. this is my final act upon the stage into solitude i will dive its what i have to do is i wish to survive. and i can manage i think can you understand then why i push you all away why i hide myself and inside i stay? it isnt becuase i dont like you it's becuase i love you too much i dont want to lose you to scare you away with my burning touch. these fingers hold death this mind a shattered mess of mine see teh changes now? i have finially come to accept who i am and how must i be... please be patient with me i love you i'll be back but for today i've wasted away. xoxo Kyelle