I'm Gonna

I'm gonna, Make something of today End the lies that I embellish upon myself Putting that wastefulness up on my shelf Because that's not where I wanna be And I know that That two years from now I would be in the same place If I don't do anything about it. I'm gonna, Decide to change Make the sadness go away Build up the confidence that'll stay Longer and stronger for another day And keep hoping and to God I pray That either it'll grow or go away Because I can't stand living this way I need it to change That's my way to keep me happy Is to be what I am not But I wanna be what I hope to be some day I'm gonna, Strive to live to a greater level Strive to kick for a better team Live to be the man that I see myself when I dream I know that where I am at is not what will seem To be who I actually wanna be I still strive to think I will do But that encouragement is long over due Still been lonely with no help Feel like I need the help from somebody else Because I'm lonely I'm gonna, Swear upon my own grave that today is the day That I will tear this self injustice from my skin Will start anew after my heart is bashed in That no matter the costs I will breathe heavy And thankfully That I took my own path To be where I wanted Since I hit the 7th grade.