Battle Within The Bipolar Mind

My mind is filled with laughter and smiles Feeling safe and secure That seems to go on for miles My mind is pure No longer isolated or on my own I'm grateful for my life Even though I'm alone I don't think about that knife But then it happens, that sudden turn Dark and deadly memories rush my brain And my anxiety start to burn Igniting every inch of my pain It's too hard to control Blood on fire throughout my veins My entire life is set ablaze I feel like I'm going insane All that made sense is now a dark haze My life's become a hot mess Anger burns through me So I try tearing into my flesh I let my blood run While I lie there broken Ashamed of what I've done My agony won't be spoken I isolate myself I just want to be alone But the pain is even worse When I'm on my own Expressing how I feel Is hard for me to do Instead I hide and just deal With everything I've been through I know the time will come When my brain has shifted And I will soon be home My soul will be uplifted.