Habbit

Do you know what you really put me threw? all the tears i've cried for you i gave up hope time after time and now im want to stop believeing your lies you said youd clean up, but ran back to patty sure enough. Cant you see your killing you and parts of me too. You may not know it but I lay awake at night wondering what happend to make this your life. All the sick twisted thing youd do they say its a habit hard to break but are you going to make a mistake most americans do killing their self with drug abuse? You say how does this have a effect on me it does because I love you and dont want to see your life end this was I cant STAND IT! It tears me up inside to see it happen so slowly first its drinking the shooting up and before you know it your hooked just like that with a blink of an eye but cant you see all the people that have died from this "Habbit" or So called "abuse" sometimes I lie wondering whats the use? In even tring to get you see my (pov) but then I feal dispare of a happily family complete that I never had it may sound selfish or even crazy to have that thought. a normal fam. mom , dad ,sissy and me all together happily but even when he was here we were all sad because of this life he never had , how could you have a life if your doing things like this to hurt your kids and whife maybe not intentionally but dont you stop to think what goes on in their minds I guess not because if you did then I wouldn't be wrighting this now would I ? im not getting an attitude im just letting you know of that life you Just let go. Copyright ©Lost~N~lonely