I won't say goodbye

It's never going to be a perfect time to tell you so. I have a question. How do you tell a man you suppose to grow old with that your no longer in love with him? The baby that we tried to have over more then three years that i'm carrying isn't yours and i'm getting married tommorrow. I asked god to give me the courage to tell you but he closed the door in my face and called me selfish. I couldn't bare looking in your brown eyes to tell you that i betrayed you and maybe your never trust or even love another woman again. I thought about begging for your forgiveness but i have hurt you enough. Saying goodbye isn't never easy so i won't bother.