Transparency

If I could Give you my pain For just a moment to two, You’d feel all the feelings That so conveniently elude. You could no longer deny All the heartache You’ve so cruelly applied. You would know Why I cry Day after day. You would know All my pain; And why I hide All the truth And the shame. You would see the mask That covers my face. And feel the sting Of loneliness’ embrace. You would feel the emptiness That plagues my soul. And how desperately I try to keep control. You would know All the things I petrified to say. And how much I want to But can’t Or won’t Go away. How I wish You knew How you tear me up inside. How you make me feel Unlovable, Worthless, Unwanted, So hopelessly beguiled. If only you could See and feel All the secrets I’ve locked In my broken heart. Maybe, just maybe You’d understand me And stop tearing me apart. ©