The Past Truth

I am breaking my heart for you Exposing my insides to match your outsides Please forgive my innermost self She shows up at all the wrong times And speaks of broken pasts and painful wreckage We cannot avoid the memories And I cannot face the uncertainty Of a future that promises a matched misery of yesterday I walk away from you hiding tears with a shaky hand You and I are a dangerous potion We conjure up the worst in each other No space between our impulses and actions We tear away at ourselves like death I lived under that spell for too long And my body is broken from it Please don't watch me walk away And romanticize this ugliness; I know you will It only brings us heartache And I can no longer follow my heart- When my head does not lie to me