Either single or empathy

I am still struggling in this adulthood of me. Many promises made but none is granted. It makes me realize its easy to tell lies. I am still worrying my fingernail can be sharp. Many times a crying scene is at the knell. It is the rain reminds me to stay with my own will. I am still lack of dwell in life's long. Many fears of loosing love is a mare flash by. It brings me to another hope for more gifts to souls. I would like to stay strong and grown. Just to make my relatively fair and whole. so to live an eternal life. I would like to have generation follow. Just to live a true life without scarcity by love. so to live a single life. I would like to tell truth and kindness. Just to make each day secure and fullfill. so to have empathy to forgive sins.