My Darkest love

I feel alone mistreated dined a normality that avoids me it's not fair I can't have what they have I can't calm my soul nobody to walk me through this this nightmare My sanity tested daily deaths delightful call I know it's wrong but it feels right I have no one and it seems like they have everyone Death is my hero my dark mysterious Casanova whispering painless I've seen him an undeniable truth in a sea of deception When I need him he is always there waiting he never left and now he calls for me like I'm his lost lover and how could I ever deny him