Love Struck Fool

Everythings tearing away, all the feelings tend to go astray why do I have to sit here in dismay Feeling the pain while my heart turns to grey It's been this way since late May Cuz I gave my heart to you in the blink of an eye now I'm sitting here tears flowing, I cry Cuz I invested my heart into someone who made me feel like my heart was finally healing But now my loves depleting All those feelings are decreasing But I still stand reaching out my hand Trying to grab that last strand The last bit of hope Look through the scope of reality and please see me Cuz im trying to cope about you and him but it's a killing Yet I'm willing to wait, No matter pain instilling and Im distressed and a mess, I cant stress how little I can rest I stay up all night to profess my feelings And I'm trying my best, but no longer can I digress So I ask why do you make me feel like a guest As if this is just a pit stop to rest, See the thing is you seem to just want a friend with benefits But that aint what I want, I want a relationship I wanna hold your hand in the streets and let everyone know you're with me No wondering if you're single or not Cuz all it does is make my heart rot I thought that if I fought I would get what I sought But apparently not, Cuz I'm still waiting in the parking lot left with the emergency break on everything locked, windows tinted feeling like I am just a coin thats minted made for just looks but no real value Please tell me it's different, that im not just a trophy for you Im going insane in my brain, too many thoughts for me to think Feel like I'm at the brink of my crisis Cuz what you're doing is cutting my heart into slices, The wise thing to do is to just walk away apparently it's what everyone says but i cant handle, it oh no you're personality is spectacular, But now it feels like you're Dracula Cuz you suck out every last piece of my being making sure I stop breathing Heart crushed, smashed into bits, watching the blood from my body drip Put your ear on my chest to hear the breaks and rips And then pretend that you love me, come on that's bullshit. Please. Stop with the tease and let me free, just tell me how it is, so I can get off my knees Cuz I'm done being a beggar, simply asking for a chance Pull the trigger and end the trance Let what we have die, or give us an actual try, No more going in circles cuz it aint a driveby No longer am I gonna let this shit fly It's either we're together or we're not No inbetween, I treat you like a queen so let me be your king, Let me treat you like royalty, and in return just treat me the same I'm done trying to get outa this maze, I feel dazed as if Im in a haze Impaired, this pain isn't just a graze, it's a direct hit and now all I can do is pray that you help me now Take out the bullet and stop the doubt cuz I'm not gonna forget about you when im off to college The only difference in life is where I get the knowledge It's not like you'll just escape my mind Cuz even if I wanted to I couldn't forget you Just prove me wrong, prove im not a lovestruck fool.