Shades of Blue

Light Blue Well, well, carry on and on. The machinery works, the robot is on. No time to think, no time to feel But this is not my life, nothing is real. There is something missing, it hurts in the night, but it's not in my dreams. It's deeper inside. It's covered by something like thickening grease of slackening carelessness, a deathly disease. Dark Blue Finding myself down again stopped pretending not to see the rain the tears that fillep up in my core have found their way out there once more. The smiling face has lost the game there's nothing left insde but shame for what I am, for what I'm not (and what I'm not, that is a lot). The tears I don't cry are blurring my brain, so thoughts cannot help me to fool all the pain Powerless, speechless, convincingly small, there's nothing to stop my pride from its fall. Black Blue Night. Nothing - sleep, sleep Don't feel - sleep, sleep Don't think - sleep Dont't cry Don't die. Nightmares, more cries, no lullabies Sleep, sleep. Wake up, get up, get up! Do it all. Smile. Swallow it all. Smile! Night. Nothing. Sleep. Don't die.