and for all it was worth, 
they were right, 
they saw something, 
beyond my heartsight.

they saw right through
they warned me of you
but i didn't care,
becuase I knew who was in there

I thought I did
anyways,
know who you were
but maybe this was becuase,
you just wnated an easy lay

which you must admit
cxompared to some
you did win
without much of a fight

and thats all becuase,
i decided that
i really truelly did, love you
that night.

but here we are,
at the fork in our road
one way you shall go
and I another,

and without certainty,
one may blunder
and we may never
ever cross our paths

and we may never,
see each other again
or hold or whsper i lvoe you,
or catch a fleeting glimpse,

as we part and we traverse
and i wonder why
you shattered my little universe.

dont you realise you were my sun
you gave me life,
and you nutured it,
and that someday i actually wanted,
to be you wife?

and yet on we go, 
and nothing more
but the little whore from Arthur,
with which you scored.

I mean nothing, 
and i never really did,
did i?
becuase once again, as a female,
im nothing but a piece of pie.

why i let you in
i do not know,
so cautious before
afraid deathly of your undertow,

and in i was swept, 
and sometimes i wept for
what was once, but
is no more.

and then i said eff that and i moved on,
trying hard to accept what 
we had become...
losing touch
with who i was

and i wonder why,
if i already knew,
that this is what you would do,
does it hurt so?

becuase i taught myself to trust you, and
i learned how to love you,
and i forgot the pain
of this once before 
crushed love i never had,

and boy am i glad,
that you never ended up being the dad,
becuase it just isn't fair,
to sit and think,
this is how it would have played,

out in the end,

  you really were no different.

xoxo Kyelle