I want to give up

I want to give up I am done with this thing they call "Life" Its just surviving, barely going through all the strife. Taking each step carefully. Yet somehow still stumbling over every step. And having to take another deep breathe But no matter how much pain I bring to my already crushed heart, I could never bring that pain to the ones I love I could never tear them apart I could never do what I constantly think of I can't be selfish That's not me. But I will always be haunted By those thoughts and memories Each one flashing in my head Each time a knife stabbing my heart Killing me when I'm already dead Making me fall apart I want to give up But that's not me I can't do that To my friends and family