I want to give up 
I am done with this thing they call "Life" 
Its just surviving, barely
going through all the strife. 
Taking each step carefully. 
Yet somehow still stumbling over every step. 
And having to take another deep breathe
But no matter how much pain I bring to my already crushed
heart, 
I could never bring that pain to the ones I love 
I could never tear them apart
I could never do what I constantly think of 
I can't be selfish 
That's not me. 
But I will always be haunted 
By those thoughts and memories
Each one flashing in my head
Each time a knife stabbing my heart 
Killing me when I'm already dead 
Making me fall apart
I want to give up 
But that's not me
I can't do that 
To my friends and family