you've closed your eyes
you've hidden the fears 
your waiting for peace 
you start to smile 
you start to see
your letting it down 
your walls are crumbling
but that's all it takes 
just that small moment 
before you see 
those hands
arms and shoulders
you know better then try 
because daring your reality 
is everyone's hell 
you cant stop it now 
the memory has started 
your tears are rolling 
shake your head 
push it far 
you always tries 
but you never win 
you cant change your past 
heaven only knows you've tried
the flashbacks blind your eyes 
you cant stop the lies
there's so much to do 
you cant let them know 
you cant let them see 
it'll happen again 
he'll find you soon
better prepare now 
for here he comes 
you smell his breath
you hear his feet
just keep your eyes down
don't start a fight  
close your eyes you'll never see
it'll get better soon the pressure will ease 
hold back the tears 
he'll make it worse 
"please.. don't" 
you try to beg 
wrong mistake the fires in his eyes
tonight he wont stop till your broken inside
time passes by 
an hour two? 
you never know 
he passes out not caring to move your trapped again 
nothings new 
he'll never stop hurting you
he'll never stop showing you
who you truly are 
every one has left you for his pleasure
mom, dad, sisters, and more
they never came looking for your 
pale skin and ocean blue eyes 
they never warned you what it could be 
they never showed you the hell he would cause 
but most importantly they never told you of
the pain of falling in love with the monster 
your monster