I feal so unloved. Lonely, all by my self i wake up everyday
to a empty house. I clean and cook and even read books to
pass the time away. Then you come home and I still all along
because you're tired from work. We hardly never talk like we
use to. I can't be with my friends and be a teenager because
im trapped in a house acting like a old woman. Then the
weekend comes and we go to the lake But I even Un-wanted
there because you're spending time with him. I wish I could
excape this Lonely Terriable world. Already grown up don't
have the time to be a girl. Not even aloud to go to her
friends house because of a mistake she made two years ago
that every teen makes at one point in time. Shes stuck in
the house slowly losing her mind. Waiting to get out of this
place to find a place of her own and feal like shes actually
home. Shes sick of hurting and fealing unloved. She asks to
go to the mall and her mother says no. Then a half hour
passes and her step sister comes by and all of a sudden her
mother feals Good enough to go with her to the mall. Stuck
again at home all along wondering why she is so unloved?
What has she done to deserve this. Why doesn't anyone care
its like as if shes not even there and invisible. She
pretends she lives in a perfect world with her smile that
holds back her real fealing. Anger, hurt, sad, UnLOVED
Fealing that no matter how hard she tries never goes they
stuck with her through the past 2 miserable years. Shes
un-trusted, unloved,& unwanted. All she did was lie a little
and slept with her boyfriend and shes never going to hear
the end of it. Shes treated like a tramp. Shes a pale as a
vamp. Begins to dress in black. And throws out all those old
rap cd's. She looks in the mirrow and she has no clue who
she sees Could this girl possiable be me? Why is she treated
so bad? The thought just come rushing back and she becomes
mad and sad. Sad because she had to grow up at only the age
15. Mad because no one cares and even knows what happened
that night. She was the one putting up the fight. She was
presured to do something she didnt want to do. SHe thought
she was in love but stupid and a fool. Now to this day she
even remebered every word he would say. I love you and would
go to the stars and back for you HE promised her his world
she was his sun and moon. He seams so calm ,collected, and
cool. She was so nervous , afraid , and didnt want to. So
then it happend and she promised her self shed never tell a
soul and this would never happen again. HE said he wouldnt
tell anyone but he went and told his best friend which
happened to be her cousin and he told her aunt and before
you know it , IT got back to her mother. She was hurt and
cryed but she had no ideal why her mother was screaming and
preaching at her. It was her mistake but not one she choose
to make. Her mother locked her up from that day on and now
shes praying that she was just gone. Shes already treated
like shes invisible so it wouldnt make a difference. She
didnt even get pregnant she was safe. Now the question is
can her mother forgive her and become her mom again? It was
one mistake that makes her live in this messed up would with
a fast transformation from a girl to a woman.

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