Mistake

I feal so unloved. Lonely, all by my self i wake up everyday to a empty house. I clean and cook and even read books to pass the time away. Then you come home and I still all along because you're tired from work. We hardly never talk like we use to. I can't be with my friends and be a teenager because im trapped in a house acting like a old woman. Then the weekend comes and we go to the lake But I even Un-wanted there because you're spending time with him. I wish I could excape this Lonely Terriable world. Already grown up don't have the time to be a girl. Not even aloud to go to her friends house because of a mistake she made two years ago that every teen makes at one point in time. Shes stuck in the house slowly losing her mind. Waiting to get out of this place to find a place of her own and feal like shes actually home. Shes sick of hurting and fealing unloved. She asks to go to the mall and her mother says no. Then a half hour passes and her step sister comes by and all of a sudden her mother feals Good enough to go with her to the mall. Stuck again at home all along wondering why she is so unloved? What has she done to deserve this. Why doesn't anyone care its like as if shes not even there and invisible. She pretends she lives in a perfect world with her smile that holds back her real fealing. Anger, hurt, sad, UnLOVED Fealing that no matter how hard she tries never goes they stuck with her through the past 2 miserable years. Shes un-trusted, unloved,& unwanted. All she did was lie a little and slept with her boyfriend and shes never going to hear the end of it. Shes treated like a tramp. Shes a pale as a vamp. Begins to dress in black. And throws out all those old rap cd's. She looks in the mirrow and she has no clue who she sees Could this girl possiable be me? Why is she treated so bad? The thought just come rushing back and she becomes mad and sad. Sad because she had to grow up at only the age 15. Mad because no one cares and even knows what happened that night. She was the one putting up the fight. She was presured to do something she didnt want to do. SHe thought she was in love but stupid and a fool. Now to this day she even remebered every word he would say. I love you and would go to the stars and back for you HE promised her his world she was his sun and moon. He seams so calm ,collected, and cool. She was so nervous , afraid , and didnt want to. So then it happend and she promised her self shed never tell a soul and this would never happen again. HE said he wouldnt tell anyone but he went and told his best friend which happened to be her cousin and he told her aunt and before you know it , IT got back to her mother. She was hurt and cryed but she had no ideal why her mother was screaming and preaching at her. It was her mistake but not one she choose to make. Her mother locked her up from that day on and now shes praying that she was just gone. Shes already treated like shes invisible so it wouldnt make a difference. She didnt even get pregnant she was safe. Now the question is can her mother forgive her and become her mom again? It was one mistake that makes her live in this messed up would with a fast transformation from a girl to a woman. Copyright ©Lost~N~lonely