Acceptance

Since i can't do notes on my phone anymore. I will just have to put it here. I have struggled with my weight and how i see myself my whole life. That has not changed just because I'm in a relationship. When i moved to Bernalillo thats when my life got turned upside down. By the time i graduated i had been forced into two diets. Which were never done corectly. I was always hungry. I lost and gained weight and i didnt think i was pretty enough, skinny enough, i felt i was just never enough. I was actually told i couldnt be happy with myself the way i was because i have a pretty face but the rest of me wasnt. This did not help my self esteem or confidence. I did though became more confident and happy with myself in my early twenties. I was still big but wasnt unhappy with myself. It took practically my whole life from 3-4 grade till my twenties to be happy with myself.. I am 28 now and I have gained weight. I love food and it is a comfort for me. I try every day to pay attention to my body. Not just what i think i want even though im not hungry. I am struggling again to accept myself right now. I am depressed and when im depressed i eat. My clothes dont fit the same and i know why. I become more depressed when something i think is pretty doesnt fit. The next time you judge someone, and i do it to. Don't, you don't know why they have gotten so far. You don't know what they struggle with. Your negative mean comment can be what sets them over the edge. This goes for skinny shaming there is a lot of different ways of hurting your body. Telling someone to eat or to stop eating is not the way to get them to get better.