Time started ticking...
and we go back wards.
I believed in fairy tails 
At a young age all my dreams shattered.
But I still had hope.
Each time and time again.
All my emotions scattered 
not sure where to begin 
So I'll start somewhere and go on from there
All my strong points became my weak points.
I feel so alone in this world.
No One can ever understand and that's fine.
Tracing my steps, Wondering where i went wrong
First time at 17 years old.
I sincerely wanted to erase All my memories.
So i can start all over.. 
Starting from Zero.
I don't want dwell in the past too long.
I only need enough to shape my future.
I dont have time
Just memories and failures
built up scars and Anger 
with no where to direct this
they say choices are yours to make 
but what about the ones that leave you hanging
crushing your spirit.
The ones you did'nt make.
I cant turn back time
I can keep going forwards.
In able to heal, I must Speak all my past 
These words that are stuck in my throat
This aching pain in my heart.
I know NO one will save me.
No  one Can.
I already shattered my shells
broke down my walls
whats there left to do.
I know my words contradict my pain.
This is after all MY fantasy.