rotten

I think this drink and cigarette has been abused Am i still a loser if i aint got nothin to lose Hit rock bottom and im plannin to stay Finally found a place to rest my head and lay Ill look back and see how great it used to be Friends are gone and left my family Because i left home for a dark sullen place These evil thoughts cant be replaced Im gonna snap one of these days So for me all you can do is hope and pray I havent been happy in about a year Every laugh and smile i give is incredibly insincere Im on the ledge tear blind eyes brain feels like mush Wish i had a friend, not to pick me up, but to give me a push