Begging

Just sitting here, looking out the window, carelessly waiting. Locked between these four white walls, waiting for what the future might bring. I lost myself, lost the passion, lost the apetite for trying new things. Will i ever get them back? I'm begging, please help me. I just want to feel good, like them. Will i ever be me again, again? Oh I'm begging, help me. They give me medication, but that's just not enough for me, because i feel just like i'm drowning, when i'm not even near the water. I'm stuck between dying and living, all i got left is this heavy breathing. Slightest Sound