Orbs

sticky sweet stuck on my eyelashes blindly stumbling through the spiderwebs down the hill to where old times lurk and memories smile in the growing darkness of our lives. and as i sit and think reminesse on times gone by flicking lighters smoking death heating razors beatin pain. cigarette burns and hot knives i couldn't care less. and the slow steady turbulence of the river around the heartbeat of bullfrogs dying whine of mosquitoes feeding the slow outlet of my breath. dampened sobs of anguish mascara tears running blood drips and soaks my finger tips seeping through black sleeves and yet again punshment is never enough. seering flesh flicking lighters flicking wrists and slicing memories crying from nothing bleeding to live the nature silenced a truck rumbles by. counting orbs and gazing stars the moon rising watch tears in moonlight flood a face of beauty eyes of treason oh how my soul burns an acidic fire without reason. cool air damp breeze a rustle sounds quite bullfrogs flicking lighters hot metal against skin so used to this i begin again. a task never finished and yet not started i wonder why my happiness departed. black pigtails fishnet leg socked foot i twist the garters pull the hair lay on the grass sighing now laying there in an old fort where was all broken? and the sweet scent of marshes and mallow the thyme beneath me and grass and such its so soft i pet it now and rising head home to write for you this sad little poem. a day so great lost in time i wonder now what happens next i quit this i gave it up and here i am all cut up. but i love it and i could never stop i could never stop teh pain you caused so why stop the pain i cause let's forget this mess gauze me please im ready now to face another day. xoxo Kyelle