burn marks are never fun
but then again
it's just begun
how can one act
be repeated
without any gain?

oh lord. how i love 
the stinging pain
the flush of red on white
what a stupid thing I have done tonight.

trash my soul
to the rythem of Alexisonfire
cry now, die now
sighs of sorrow
and yet
continue this well worn path
of self destruction

and what? without reason
you might not understand
but in my heart
this is whats right.
die a little more tonight.

and the things i hide
my disorders i live
when night falls
and the worls crumbles
and all is bleak
i wake up morning time
happy and ready to go again

"the lies of friends you didnt have"
what a line
popped into my head.
don't cover the right
wings, wings carry me away
in a sky of red

the calling
calls now
pill popping all night madness
blurry lights and
truths
pour my soul on my carpet
let the stains remain for eternity
can't you see who i am?

i unleash myself upon the world
yet hide it, times sevenfold.
paint my soul black
paint my walls
my life my mind
my heart of stone
stonebreakers.

light a fire in my soul
and let it burn right through
until im ashes again
and the fun has just begun.

let me bleed
let me cry
let me swallow and let my fly high
let me be me...
dont be afraid
im normal i swear.

i swear by these scars
these marks
secrets out now.
and you dont want me
and you dont like me
but love holds us here
in limbo.

come what may
i will always cry.
i will always hurt
never knowing happiness
without a source
what the fuck.

and these flame marks so 
pretty. these patterns
they make me giddy
and as they blister and peel
soon i know they'll heal
and then bandaids gone
burning into my soul
another song.

dont cry for me
dont try for me
im already lost.
but im happiest here
in teh dark
in teh dead
i belong
with the forgotten.

gravestones mark me
your smile haunts me
and when im ready
i'll peel back my sleeves
and show you all.
i'll lay with you
and hope you lvoe me still
i'll hold you close and whisper
sweet nothings
secrets and all i know.
all i hide
i promise to let it show.

but only if you ask. 
if you only want to know
are we freinds like that?
tonight, as i cry in my sleep
calling out your name
these marks burning
remind me of my bad.

all i want is reason
all i wanted was you
but him too...
hold on, i'll be better.

i will behave myself
i promise
in my love you i gave
turn away from my tears
fast forward the years.

things i want to tell them all
why am i afraid i'll fall?
why.
another mark, a mission, a scar
and im ready now
to tell you who you are?
no. no. never. not.
im really sure i've already forgot.

intoxicate me with
those haunting eyes.
please. cant i forget about you
and let us be as we are.

try and keep us this way.
until another day.
i dont trust myself
do you?
would you if you only knew...
do you mind?

i do.
and i sing to the mirror
brushing out hair
ripping more.
bleed fake blood
does anyone even care?

xoxo
kyelle