i cry myself to sleep each night
i cant help it, the night brings fright
im scared of myself so much
ive lost my smile and i miss it so much

reluctantly my hand finds the razor
in one easy swipe it peirces the skin
the pain is at bay,it will not come
it keeps until the blood i have seen.

the blood seeps slowly
and i dont think its gonna stop
i think this time ive cut too deep
theres too much blood for me to mop.

i reach for it once more
the blade's so cool and fresh
it welcomes my skin so friendly
i dont want to end this sesh.

the blood pours quickly
far too quickly to stop
im not sure what to do
i think i went over the top.

i wonder if ill die tonight,
i wonder what will my friends say?
who wil even care at all?
would anyone even cry?

i hope that tonight i die
so that this pain will go
i cannot hold it in anymore
im wondering if i should let go?

i dont want to hurt anyone
but i dont think anyone would care
ive hurt to many people all ready 
and i cant anymore 

So maybe this will be
my final goodbye
i'll miss you all
i love you all
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