i will never understand

i will never understand the cruelty of your odd shaped hand nothing will ever justify all the tears my family has had to cry i will never understand your meaning of how you are leaning nothing will ever explain all the un-necessary pain only you never cried one drop since it was you that i could knot stop only you had no heart ache at the expense of immense heart break i will never rationalize how you must demonize i will never contemplate all your pent up hate i will never understand the severity of your basic stand nothing will ever rectify crushing my child as if she was a fly i will never understand your grave intent of how our lives had to be spent nothing but God alone could cut you down to the bone only you never cried one drop since it was you that i could knot stop only you had no heart ache at the expense of immense heart break the meaning of my death shall be escaping you completely i will never rationalize how you must demonize i will never contemplate all your pent up hate let the death of two be on your head when you stand before the good shepherd dead the meaning of my child's death shall be fruitless in a deep dark sea i will never understand your grave intent of how our lives had to be spent nothing but God alone could cut you down to the bone all because i could knot love you fully is the reason for your murderous bully all because i could knot love you as you desired our lives had to be expired only you never cried one drop since it was you i could knot stop only you had no heart ache at the expense of immense heart break