However much i try, you still push me away

however much i try, you blank me day after day,

however much i try, you never want to know,

You tell me you don't want me, is this really so?

however much i try, you seem to find it amusing,

however much i try, with my heart ripping and bruising,

however much i try, it always ends in tears,

however much i try, i always have the fears,

however much i try, i end up lonely and depressed,

however much i try, i just can't seem to pass the test,

however much i try, it's never good enough for you,

even though i showed u my heart the way i wanted to,

you just tore it to pieces, looked and threw it away,

you kissed me and left, and i wanted you to stay,

i was left there feeling used, stupid and nieve,

for believing your stupid lies, you told me to deceive,

now i'm left with nothing, i'm nothing without you,

and now i'm supposed to move on? like you told me to,

it's easier for you, you didn't feel like me,

i honestly believed in my heart that you held the key,

and however much i try, it's just not meant to be,

so for now i look to the future, till then i guess we'll
see.


For Ben


Copyright Rebecca Waring