soscared
unsure
sosad
unheard
in my safety box
falling into my net
trying to keep safe
my feelings in tact
don't wanna look foolish
dumb or naive
just wanna be free
now i just wanna breathe
why do i say no?
when what i want to say is yes
all my emotions have blurred
i'm mixed up instead
i love you
i hate you
you're poison
you're sweet
you're as fresh as the day
and as sweet as a flower
but sometimes your not
my feelings turn sour
all i want is to be with you
if just for an hour
jealousy eats into me
cause she can act so free
she's confident 
and flirty 
i never knew her true colours
and i call her my "best friend"
i try and play it safe
and i thought she did too
but now i'm mastaken
and i don't know if i know her anymore
i love you all
but you push me away
you tempt her to come out and play
and cause i'm too scared
shy
and
naive
i can't
though i just wanna have fun
be with you
my secret love
and smile
But holding onto these
fears
makes it hard to breathe
makes it hard to let go
and just be me
please someone just set me free.


you only live once.