so scared

soscared unsure sosad unheard in my safety box falling into my net trying to keep safe my feelings in tact don't wanna look foolish dumb or naive just wanna be free now i just wanna breathe why do i say no? when what i want to say is yes all my emotions have blurred i'm mixed up instead i love you i hate you you're poison you're sweet you're as fresh as the day and as sweet as a flower but sometimes your not my feelings turn sour all i want is to be with you if just for an hour jealousy eats into me cause she can act so free she's confident and flirty i never knew her true colours and i call her my "best friend" i try and play it safe and i thought she did too but now i'm mastaken and i don't know if i know her anymore i love you all but you push me away you tempt her to come out and play and cause i'm too scared shy and naive i can't though i just wanna have fun be with you my secret love and smile But holding onto these fears makes it hard to breathe makes it hard to let go and just be me please someone just set me free. you only live once.