all this confusion inside of me
what was it that i couldn't see
i worried so much about what wasn't real
and now i know what it means to feel
this horrible feeling that denies you your right
to enjoy simple company, both day and night
now destroyed by the words i fed you that day
but now i just wish i could take it away

all the sadness you feel 
and the tears in my eyes
all the honesty lost 
and my damn foolish lies
wasted on someone who'll never return
all the things and the thoughts
and the love and concerns

what was i thinking
it couldn't be true
when everything i wanted
i had in you
and not him, not at all
i mean, he never called
couldn't see it was me
i just wanted to be 
someone's drive and desire
which burned like a fire
but death-ly it died 
in my sight, in my cries

and now left with heartache
on infinite planes
spreading all across memories
that have all become stains
left with this feeling 
of a sad lonely kind
how strange that i had 
what i could never find

and now melancholy dances 
with irony
as i see what could've 
and what'll never be
both the black and the white
all so clear to me now
just move on but i cant
not again...dont know how...