I Swear

its so crazy inside its so crazy in here I dont think I can drive do you think you can steer it all feels so crowded im lost in my mind and despite better judgement i cant seem to find my logic or reasons -just thrown out the door my home's now my prison -i want so much more a neutral treason just show me the way look into my eyes and lie just make my day take my hand, take me there love or the highway i dont care i know you're not where you say you are in my mind, in my heart, in my arms, in my car but i'll sit in this random silenced confusion just lie back and wonder if you're lying too this isn't love, it isn't true it isn't me, it isn't you so whats to keep me, what can i say where is my purpose, why should i stay are we living or dead was it something i said there's no options left only "is" , not "instead" logic lost long ago lacking reason and rhyme so devastating, so destructive hearing these voices in my mind what happiness is there when voices decide your time and your purpose your wrongs and your rights so lost between people my loves and my likes crying in the daylight submerged in the night please take this sadness this "happy" hurts too it isn't me but i swear it's not you.