Disappear

I wish I could disappear into the night without a trace. you not knowing where I went. or why I left. out of this bed and into the world. out of my mind and into my hands. my memories of a painful past, rape and a mothers lie. telling me that it isnt wrong or it wont hurt. or scar me. but it has. I wish my memories and life could disappear, with you. I've tried to forget all that you've done,but I cant. I wish you could disappear out of my life. my memories. my past.I wish I could disappear into the night without a trace. and go back and tell someone just what you did. so you could have been stopped. My cuts disappear into scars. scars that you've caused. I wish my nightmares of you would disappear so I wouldnt be scared.. and look over my shoulder..everywhere I go so I can live my life knowing you're gone. you've disappeared..with my dreams. my innocence. my wishes. my smile. my life. and my memories. I wanna disappear into the night without a trace.. you wondering where you went wrong...