10 things.

10 things about 10 different people (well technically 11) 1. You were always there for me. We always had so much fun and did the most random stupid things. I never remember being bored and I was always happy, which is more than I can say now. 2. I'll smile for you while we have a pointless conversation, while your trying not to think about me, while I'm trying to get you to. I guess what happened was my fault, I remember our last kiss, well it wasnt really a kiss, you tried to kiss me and I turned away. I hate what happened with us ... but I guess I had it coming. I'm sorry that I wasnt the only one that got hurt. 3. I want to say that I love you, but I know I can't anymore, it'll mean nothing besides me dwelling on the past. No one knows how I actually felt about you, not even you, and I guess now you'll never know. Maybe thats why I did what I did, and I'm sorry. But it doesn't matter know, the last thing you said to me was "I love you" and I couldn't say it back. but I wanted to , i really did. I'll miss you forever. 4. It took me so long to get over you, I cried so many tears for you. I really thought we had something extrodinary, but I guess your thoughts were different. despite all that I will never forget what we had, even if you tarnished the memorie by being an ass. Just so you know I'll never forget you, because it was fun right up untill you ruined it. We had some great convo's and some tough desicions, but we did alright. I hope you dont forget me either. 5. I would say I have one bff, i have a bunch, but your definitally right up there. We have been through alot with eachother, and I think we're starting to get the hang of it. I feel like I know you and you know me. I know its tough for you now, and it doesn't seem like its going to get any better. But it will and i'll still be here for you in the end. One day things will happen for you but look at what you have. 6. I can't think of one person who I've had so many fights with. But I guess thats because people usually fall out after so many fights. But I guess both of us are stubborn enough to stay friends, and thats good. I have to say sometimes, alot of the time, you annoy the hell out of me and the only thing I want to do is punch you in the face. But even through those moments you have been there for me, as reluctant as I am to admit it, and you've helped me out of some tough spots. So I guess I probably annoy the hell out of you too. You can punch my face anytime you like, but I'll still hit you back. 7. I think its weird the way I feel about you. I want to take a blunt, heavy object and beat you with it ... repeatedly, but I also want nothing more than you to take me into your arms and hold me tight. You've made me cry, but you've also been there to dry them. You make me happy and sad at the same time and I just want to say "I dont like you like that" but I cant. So I guess I'm waiting for you to make up your mind, cuz you seem to be confused aswell, I'd like to say I wont wait forever, but thats the way it feels. I wish I could get you out of my head. 8. You have it tough, really tough. All this stuff that people are scared of going through, you've done it. And sometimes you feel like giving up, but you've fought hard to be where you are today, so if you did it would all kinda be a waste ... wouldnt it? Even though so many things have gone wrong, and more will. Even though your scared of so many things happening, good things will happen. You've surrounded yourself with good people, and not all of them are always going to be there, but thats life, people come and people go, but you have to let them go. Bad things are going to happen, but good will too. You have to look at the things you have and the way I see it, its alot. Not to many people have the friendships that you have. So count your stars and keep kickin'. 9. You are the luckiest person I've ever met. And I have to admit sometimes it makes me jelous. You have everything that I would want. You've found that special someone and you have all the love in the world from your friends and family. But I guess we all have our secrets. I have to say I've known you forever and I've only seen you cry once, and it says alot what you were crying about. Your friends mean the world to you. I know on the surface your life looks perfect, but people don't see that you have had rough spots just like everyone else and life gets hard for you too, you've had your share of problems, but I think your just better at dealing with them than most people, your really strong and your more than what you seem. 10. I had 2 people left to put up here, I have stuff about both of them posted already and both are important so i'll do a 2 in 1. I met you both at the same time, and both of you sparked my attention. I guess you could say at one point I loved both of you, in different ways. for one, I hope we can go back to what we had, because eventhough we had fun and things are ok I think we need to go back ... that was fun to wasnt it? and to the other, I hope we can have more, even though I love us this way, I think I love the thought of us being like that more. We do have a strong bond so I know we can always go back to what we are, but id like to give it a try. your so much to me.