tell me all this isn't real.
could you snap your fingers?
make me go numb again.
why do i always screw myself ?
there was no need to put forth effort;
i was born knowing how
to push you all away.

do you see the reasons?
because i don't.
i can't even realize
what the fuck i'm doing anymore.
just coasting on to...?
why did i expect so much?
it was obvious you couldn't
pull me through.

so here i am again.
i've made all the same mistakes
it's the same situation
and i still haven't learned
what it is i'm supposed to do;
a multiple dose of deja-vu.
i'm clueless,
and wouldn't you know it
so are you.

go play your god game
somewhere else.
your cards are cards
that i've already been dealt.
the smell of your skin;
i've already smelt.
i don't know if it's hit you yet
but god isn't real.
but neither am i
so i know how it feels.

i'm not pretending on purpose
i'm genuinely fake.
trying to love me
was your biggest mistake.
just take what you want
and leave me alone.
go back to your kingdom of lies
and sit tall on your
big fake thrown.

just think; i'm thinking too.
just watch; i'll be watching you.
just know; i'll be knowing everything
you're going to do.
just fuck; because everyone else
is fucking too.

in our world;
somewhere else's hell.
we're the rejects
the ones that fell.
saying and doing such hurtful things.
such fragile hearts
hearts that cling.
but no one cares or gives a shit.
we're all going to die anyways
you can't win
we all lose.
it's over, and that's it.

love michelle.