Genuinely Fake.

tell me all this isn't real. could you snap your fingers? make me go numb again. why do i always screw myself ? there was no need to put forth effort; i was born knowing how to push you all away. do you see the reasons? because i don't. i can't even realize what the fuck i'm doing anymore. just coasting on to...? why did i expect so much? it was obvious you couldn't pull me through. so here i am again. i've made all the same mistakes it's the same situation and i still haven't learned what it is i'm supposed to do; a multiple dose of deja-vu. i'm clueless, and wouldn't you know it so are you. go play your god game somewhere else. your cards are cards that i've already been dealt. the smell of your skin; i've already smelt. i don't know if it's hit you yet but god isn't real. but neither am i so i know how it feels. i'm not pretending on purpose i'm genuinely fake. trying to love me was your biggest mistake. just take what you want and leave me alone. go back to your kingdom of lies and sit tall on your big fake thrown. just think; i'm thinking too. just watch; i'll be watching you. just know; i'll be knowing everything you're going to do. just fuck; because everyone else is fucking too. in our world; somewhere else's hell. we're the rejects the ones that fell. saying and doing such hurtful things. such fragile hearts hearts that cling. but no one cares or gives a shit. we're all going to die anyways you can't win we all lose. it's over, and that's it. love michelle.