The room is dark and there is nothing here
not a sound, no movement at all
everything is just so quiet
i look out of the window, and all the action is outside
i want to go, but i just can't
i feel trapped in my own self confidence
i sit down with my head in my hands
why can't all this pain just fade away?
then i can go outside and breathe the freedom
and feel whole again
but it just feels impossible
there is no way i can escape out of this black hole
the black hole of misery
i scream, i shout but nobody hears
it seems like i'm the only one here
and everybody else carries on with their life
what's wrong with them?
i need to just get out of this room which is my mind,
it feels like a room with no way out
with darkness and nobody here to help
i am going to be trapped in this room forever
no way out, can't go out
i feel stupid for just sitting here feeling sorry for
myself
why can't i just go outside like all the others?
coz people will laugh at me, that's why
i don't belong in their gangs and crews
i'm just an outsider
my mind needs to change it's thoughts and feelings
but it just stays this empty black room full of anger,
sadness, fear and unhappiness
how am i ever going to change that
i hate this room, i just want out!
i can't sit here feeling sorry for myself
it's just not fair
nobody cares anyway
so i might as well just sit here in my own self pity
nobody understands the way i feel
they just laugh
and  it gives them all the more reason to pick on me
they put me in this black room,
they did it!
locked me here, away from everybody
that's what they want, they don't want me here
so they can all have fun outside,
maybe it's my fault,
i brought this on myself for not being popular and fitting
in
i just need to blot out the pain
and then everybody and everything will go away
and leave me in peace
and then i will no longer be trapped in this black room...


Copyright Rebecca Waring