i wrote this about three months after my first love died in
a car accident i don't even know why. i just started
writting and this is what came out.. he did something that
no one else could.. or had the  guts too i'll always love
him. i'll always miss him..
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you think you know
  How I feel,
but what you're thinking
  Isnt real.
Take a moment,
breathe the pain.
smell the hate
cut the vein. 
Kiss the lips 
taste the tears
choke the life,
  from your fears.
Run away,
Be afraid
fall in love
with the blade.
Break the heart,
Loose your own
  Fall apart
crack the bone.
Kick the dirt,
fall again.
Dont get up
Lose a friend.
Lose your soul
stop to care
  be alone
learn to swear.
On the ground,
just play dead.
Patch your heart,
  up with lead.
Dig your grave,
  choose a stone.
In the rain,
stand alone.
Scratch the scab
tear the stich
forget to breathe
Start to twitch.
Pray for death.
Kiss life good-bye.
  Then wake up,
and still be alive.
Pull the cord
Scream in pain
Feel the hope
Die in your brain.
Seek revenge,
on those who care
Close your eyes
  and say a prayer.
Fiend for drugs
  and drop the knife,
Then you can say,
  You've lived my life...