To see you smile

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I'm with friends, I'm telling a joke
I didn't see you slip in. the punch line hits.
we all laugh but it's your smile that shines through.
it seams withering, tormenting, painfull to see you smile for whta I have done. but I feel happy and special inside. because your the one laughing
it's times like these that I cherish what we had...what we still have. no one saw as your gaze met mine.
theres still a spark there between us. I realise I still love you as you do I.
But reality snaps back. everyone is stareing. It'll never work.
"what do you want? I mutter
"nothing," you whisper "nothing at all"