I'm with friends, I'm telling a joke

I didn't see you slip in. the punch line hits.

we all laugh but it's your smile that shines through.

it seams withering, tormenting, painfull to see you smile
for whta I have done. but I feel happy and special inside.
because your the one laughing

it's times like these that I cherish what we had...what we
still have. no one saw as your gaze met mine.

theres still a spark there between us. I realise I still
love you as you do I.

But reality snaps back. everyone is stareing. It'll never
work.
"what do you want? I mutter

"nothing," you whisper "nothing at all"