Spinning

I feel locked inside this life, that isn't even a life Bound by these chains, of neverending strife These feelings with no reason, to actually exist And nothing to completely, successfully assist A circle of confusion A funnel cloud illusion Trapping me in it's winds Consuming me with my sins The tangle of problems, the mass chaos in my head The whirlwind of emotions, will it ever end? I realize i am breathing, and for the pain I strive Anything to let me, know that i'm alive I can't decide which is better, a hurting heart or feeling numb Sometimes not feeling anything, is better than feeling so glum Sometimes I doubt i'll make it, I'd rather just give up If I stay here too much longer, I might just erupt Lucky for me, something keeps me going If you could even call it luck, it keeps those rocks from rolling Rolling down and killing me, i know what it is But even so, I'm so confused, about this quiz of his