Sorry For My Ways

This is why I am sorry for my ways. I let people walk on me It's not my fault you see I am just wanting to find solace Find my grip on this slippery rock I have come to depend on I try to keep my friends I guess you can say I try to "buy" them So what if I do... It's the only way I know how to have friends Right now anyway Maybe I should start trying to find peace of mind Just for myself Yet how do I do that When all I want is someone to love me Love me for who I am Friends is all I ask I have parents, sure But they don't beat a love of a friend or a guy who should be there I just want someone to understand me I just want somebody to tell me how I am I am tired of this defeat In which I case myself into the darkened corners of my existence Should I become to cold That is because I want somebody to pay attention Someone to pull me aside and tell me that I am alive Enough, my friends, enough I say I say enough because I want you to stop treating me so Treating me like I am tainted You don't understand how you hurt me You don't understand how all you do is talk about yourself Never asking me about me, never wanting to know I hurt You may not see my tears You have blown that chance Because you do not see me You see what you want to see You hear what you want to hear For that, I am hateful... and for that I am sorry for my ways The ways you have put upon my back. Shame on you Shame--------on--you