Everything is Nothing

i thought it was all better but i've come to realize everything is nothing to me through these eyes i skip this and miss that i'm neither here nor there just hiding in the dark lost in thought, in dispair you'd all like to know inquisitive you are clandestine lies in my head lies a war my adversary takes hold pulls me down to his core losing needed energy i struggle for some more i gain some ground then trip again back and forth can't seem to win