i thought it was all better
but i've come to realize
everything is nothing
to me through these eyes

i skip this and miss that
i'm neither here nor there
just hiding in the dark
lost in thought, in dispair

you'd all like to know
inquisitive you are
clandestine lies
in my head lies a war

my adversary takes hold
pulls me down to his core
losing needed energy
i struggle for some more

i gain some ground
then trip again
back and forth
can't seem to win