My First Love

These thoughts These feelings I know I don't know what to think I don't know how to feel Everything's confused Everything's blank Do I smile? Do I cry? Do I scream? Do I yell? Do I give in?... Do I say no? All emotions in limbo All emotions hanging You're complex and you confuse me I've seen many sides Many sides of you How do you feel? I'll never know Lies, truth, deceit Love, confessions, illusions ....How am I supposed to feel? Do you care? How am I to know? Do you care?... If I care? I really don't know One second, all is right The next, all is wrong I've said "I love you" And you've said it back But is that how you really feel? Somehow, I'm not so sure Do I move on? Try finding "Mr. Right"? Or keep your thoughts near? Will you come back for me? I've tried everything I guess it hasn't been enough You're leaving me... Do I leave you first?.... I just don't know I'm leaving it at that I think I have to let go Of my very first love.....