Recent Fuck Ups.

this was written a long time ago.. and it's about a friend not caring about what a guy she's obbsessed with hurting me and using me, just because she was obbsessed with him. some friend eh? *** why do you constantly have to bring him up? a daily reminder of my most recent fuck up. you shove it in my face even thought it's not on purpose. you don't understand this could end up hurting us. the wounds are still fresh like salt being rubbed. just fucking shut up i hate being bugged. just let me forget please i don't want to feel like this forever. just because you can get over what he's done to me so easily doesn't mean i can. go ahead and keep him as a friend you just don't seem to grasp the damage of past words said all the blood bled the feeling of rejection the feeling of already being dead before this. a heart now made entirely of lead. it's not that it was him. i just can't believe it happened again. i'm sorry but this time i'm sick of playing pretend. i won't lie it hurts alot. in all these webs of brokeness i've found myself caught. just please.. let it lie. love michelle.