i just want to kill something
make it die
wipe it off the face of the earth.
i can't take it
all the lies.
one day i'll witness you die.

don't worry about me
i'll be alright
pretending to put up
one hell of a fight
with the plague inside.
really i'm loving the ride.

all the times you think i cried
i laughed.
disturbing the mass destruction
you seek to free me of
sometimes you can sound
so naive.
especially to think you could
heal me with love.

what did you think created the mess?
did you think i was born
feeling pain hate and distress?

as crimson gashes form and spill
releasing feeling not given
by these pills.
given time they fade
softer shades of black and blue
a constant reminder
of the blade.

with the night shade
veiling my face.
the marks vanish
you won't find a trace.
it's poison at the tip
jumping to fill me
and aid as i skip and trip
across the finish line.
carving out the end
betraying the "divine".
until there is nothing left to mend
bend or break.
nothing left to take
or mistake me for.
nothing else to make you
continue to want more.

cutting it all out.
taking away the pain.
but without that part
it just can't be the same.
you won't want me anymore
you'll just leave me on the floor.
handing you my heart
praying you'll forget me not.
without even looking back
you walk away
and let it drop.

love michelle.