Angry and Afraid.

i just want to kill something make it die wipe it off the face of the earth. i can't take it all the lies. one day i'll witness you die. don't worry about me i'll be alright pretending to put up one hell of a fight with the plague inside. really i'm loving the ride. all the times you think i cried i laughed. disturbing the mass destruction you seek to free me of sometimes you can sound so naive. especially to think you could heal me with love. what did you think created the mess? did you think i was born feeling pain hate and distress? as crimson gashes form and spill releasing feeling not given by these pills. given time they fade softer shades of black and blue a constant reminder of the blade. with the night shade veiling my face. the marks vanish you won't find a trace. it's poison at the tip jumping to fill me and aid as i skip and trip across the finish line. carving out the end betraying the "divine". until there is nothing left to mend bend or break. nothing left to take or mistake me for. nothing else to make you continue to want more. cutting it all out. taking away the pain. but without that part it just can't be the same. you won't want me anymore you'll just leave me on the floor. handing you my heart praying you'll forget me not. without even looking back you walk away and let it drop. love michelle.